Chapter 169
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"She cheated on him and they broke up"
"Shit!" you miss class for a week and everything changes "how is he?"
"He's quiet, doesn't really talk to his friends and Kaya has been skipping school a lot" "That sucks"
"Oh come on Jude this is exactly what you wanted, you're in love with Eric and we're both pretty
sure he's into you. He's just too straight to see it"
"Exactly he's too straight and plus Eric doesn't talk to me about his relationship so..."
".... and why do you think that dummy? He knows how it makes you feel so he doesn't mention it" we're about to walk into class but she stops me "look there he is at his locker go talk to him!"
"No! We're going to be late for class" it's hard to be around Eric, he literally always says the right things and I always doubt my will power because I'm afraid I'm going to lunge at him and kiss him
"Jude if you don't go talk to him I will take my shirt off" she's not joking "and we both know no one wants to see that" she keeps a straight face.
Rolling my eyes I walk away from her heading to Eric, I never know what to say to him the words just flow out of my mouth. "Hey" I walk to him standing next to him
"Jude! You're back" he smiles at me "how are you?" "Good, but I heard about..."
He smiles "yep lost 120 lbs" I laugh
"I'm sorry about Kaya"
"It's ok it was bound to happen"
"Well if you say you're ok then that's good"
"I am" I turn to walk away "what are you doing tonight?" I turn back "What?"
"Are you busy?"
Even if I was busy I'd say no "nope I'm wide open" shutting my eyes I regret the words as soon as they come out of my mouth "I mean I'm free I'm not doing anything"
He smiles "ok well I was wondering if I could get us some beer and come over maybe we can hang out"
"Yeah! Sure sounds great" FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
"Cool see you at your place later" he walks away. You may not understand how fucked I actually am but allow me to explain. Eric is the guy I've been pining over since like the 6th grade way before I
knew I was gay, he's fine with who I am and we had this thing we use to say to each other I'd call him my school husband and he'd call me his school wife but that was way before he got rid of his braces and grew abs.
Now that he's hot and gets girls we don't joke like that anymore, I mean once in a while he'll tap my butt which makes me melt on the inside but I know it's all just jokes.
Eric and I haven't hung out just one on one since like the 9th grade, he stopped hanging out with me because he dated this girl who told him to because she thought I was after him. I mean I totally was but that was besides the point. "So let me get this straight he's coming over to your place and you guys are going to get drunk?" Stacy asks as I drive dropping her home after school
"Yes and I'm cool about it, Eric and I are friends I can handle it" no I can't
"No you can't" she knows me "Jude he's vulnerable do you know what this means?" "He needs a friend right now?"
"No idiot! He needs to forget about Kaya and you're going to help him!"
"I know you may think something is going to happen but absolutely nothing is going to happen besides us drinking beer and probably watching movies"
"If you say so" we get to her street and I pull up to her house "don't forget to wear protection" she gets out of the car
"WE'RE NOT HAVING SEX!" I yell as her mom opens the front door. She scolds at me "hey Mrs. Reed"
I wave awkwardly she doesn't reply
"I'll see you later Stacy" I say and drive away, that was embarrassing.
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"Where are your folks?" Eric asks as he walks into my house "Vacation"
"Didn't you guys just come back form vacation? You were gone a week" "No I was sick they had to postpone the trip to yesterday"
"You were sick?!" he asked surprised "why didn't you tell me?"
"It didn't matter you were busy and I told Stacy not to tell anyone" "I'm not anyone Jude I'm your friend I care about you"
We walk to the living room "enough about me how are you?"
"This is how I am" he raises two bottles of beer and we sit on the couch.
We sit there just drinking and I could definitely feel the tension, his thigh rubbing against mine "so what do you want to watch?"
"I can't fucking believe she cheated on me!" he spits out. I sit there too scared to answer and he continues "I was a great boyfriend and she never appreciated me, and she made me feel like I was the problem like I did something to make her cheat. Is something wrong with me?"
he looks at me with puppy eyes
