Chapter 140
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"Sit sit" she pulls me down "Maya from next door and I went to do some recon today and I found a bunch of stuff out! Like did you know there's a gay coffee shop downtown?" She starts to pick up the pamphlets "and I spoke to this lady I met today that said if you're not comfortable in the gym you like to workout at because you're gay now" she really doesn't understand how offensive that is. "There is this really cool one two towns over, and it's supposed to be a gay gym, that sounds fun right?" oh no, my mom likes to get invested in things
"Mom you have to cool it with the pamphlets, and please stop talking to Mrs. Landers about me" "Well we didn't say anything bad I told you I was ok with it and I am, your father isn't against it either
he just needs time to wrap his head around it"
"Great" I stand up "I'm fine with the gym I go to now, and I don't drink coffee so these are pointless but I do need your advice on something important."
Shoving the pamphlets to the floor she pulls me to sit back down "I'm all ears" I look at her weird because of what she just did "I'll pick those up later, now what do you need my advice about?"
"Remember the night after I told you and dad I was gay and you came to my room and said the Wilton's son is gay maybe I should talk to him?" She nods "well I kind of asked him out today"
She gasps "what! That's amazing! I mean that's not what I told you to do, but that's great too! When is it? How'd you ask him?"
"He said no" her excitement disappears "I told him that I thought about him a lot which I have been and he told me that I'm only asking him out because he's the only gay guy I know, and that I'm not actually gay I'm just confused"
"Evers Wilton said that? But he's such a nice boy"
"He is I just made a mistake asking him out the day after I came out, and I've barely talked to him since we were like kids, and I kind of kissed him but he still rejected me."
"What!" She jumps at the last part "you kissed him? Why would you kiss him?"
"I don't know! Maybe because he was doubting me, I didn't know how else to prove it so I kissed him, but that just made it worst. What should I do?"
"Well did he leave any signs that might give the impression that he likes you back?"
"Besides kissing me back no, he said that going on a date with me would be a horrible idea, he doesn't like me, and I'm just projecting"
"Evers Wilton is a jerk he doesn't know what he's talking about! Asking him out was kind of a bad idea honey, but he didn't have to be so harsh about it"
"I wasn't thinking, and he's not mom I'm the jerk. Whatever it's probably for the best right? I should figure out how the hell to be gay before I even think about asking other dudes out" Just saying it out loud feels weird.
I stand up and she stands up too "my big hulking baby's gay" she wraps her arms around me for an unwelcome hug
"Mom don't call me a baby I'm 17" her arms squeeze over my arms making it difficult to worm my way out off the hug, the more I try to pry her off the tighter she squeezes "why are you so strong?" I force
"That's mama strength honey if I can push out a 6'4 child I can do anything!" "That's gross" she let's go and I walk away
"Dinner will be ready soon!" She yells at me as I'm walking.
That night after an awkward dinner with my mom, dad, and baby brother I lay in bed turning on my tv.
I hear a knock on my patio door as I lay in bed, sitting up I see someone's shape behind the glass doors and curtains. Getting up I walk to the door and move the curtain "Evers?" I notice his face standing behind the door, sliding it open "what are you doing here?"
"I didn't think you'd actually kiss me" "What?" I step out sliding the door shut
"Earlier when you kissed me I didn't think you would, it caught me off guard and I said a bunch of mean stuff, so I guess I'm here to apologize. I shouldn't have said you shouldn't have come out, you coming out was your own decision, I just wish you kept me out of it. It took me forever to get under the radar and if anything were to happen between us I'd become a target again and I don't want that."
"I didn't think about it like that"
"Of course you didn't, and I really don't think you like me Jonah but I get it you came out and I was the closest gay person to you."
I sit on the steps and Evers does the same "last month at an away game the guys and I got really drunk and-"
"If this is going where I think it is I'm gonna have to stop you right there" he cuts me off
"No" I chuckle getting his idea "just listen, it was the night before the game and we drank all the alcohol from our mini fridge, we were walking around when all of a sudden one of the guys had the dumb idea to go see a psychic"
"Why?"
"To predict if we'd win. Anyway we found one and she did the stupid palm thing to all of us. When she got to me the only thing she had to say was you're not your whole self unless you're your trustest self." He looks at me confused "I didn't know what it meant either but I think subconsciously I did. I didn't ask you out because I needed to prove I was gay or because you were the nearest gay guy to me. I did it because I could and because I wanted to. I know we're complete opposites and I have no idea what being gay actually means but I'm into you Evers, and you can tell me I'm not all you want but I know what I feel. I am sorry though I never meant to freak you out and I completely get it if you don't want to date me."
After I finish talking we stare at each other for a brief moment then Evers looks away "if we date you won't get any backlash Jonah I will, the reaction you got when you came out isn't what I got. Granted I came out in the 6th grade and people weren't as accepting then."
"Trust me I notice the stares and I've been getting so much shit handed to me from my friends, but I honestly don't care and you shouldn't either."
"Easier said than done." Not knowing what to say to each other it gets awkwardly quiet as we just sit there, Evers is obviously skeptical but I don't know what else to tell him that could convince him that I actually like him, telling him all day and kissing him wasn't enough. "If I give you a chance how do I know it won't come back to bite me in the ass?"
"You don't that's why it's called chance, honestly Evers I don't want you to do anything you don't want to, you've been making it clear all day that you didn't want to."
Unexpectedly leaning in Evers kisses me and after taking a second to react to his lips being on mine I start to kiss him back. After kissing me he slightly pulls away our faces are still pretty close "I want to" he whispers staring into my eyes and smiling, kissing me again Evers moves closer
pulling away I ask "are you sure?"
"Nope" we both laugh a little "but I'm willing to try, no guy's ever been relentless after me before" "I wouldn't say relentless" I smile embarrassed
"You kissed me earlier after I turned you down twice" "Because I was trying to prove that I like you!" I get worked up Evers laughs "I know I was just saying"
"So we're doing it we're going on a date?"
"I guess so"
"Try not to sound so excited" I joke Smiling "I can't wait to go out with you."
