Chapter 134
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"I think we should have sex" my roommate walks into our dorm as I'm on my bed doing homework. Dropping my pencil I take off my glasses and look over at him, the words came out of his mouth before he even shut the door. Finally shutting the door he stands in front of it "I can explain"
Turning my full attention to him I reply "please do"
"2 weeks ago I was napping" he puts air quotes around napping "and you were running late for class so after your shower you had to come back here and change, you figured you could since I was asleep and probably wouldn't see anything. I wasn't sleeping, I saw everything
and-"
"Hold that thought!" I stop him. Picking up my phone I text my friend Kati I WAS RIGHT! I KNEW HE WASN'T SLEEPING THAT DAY HE TOTALLY WATCHED ME CHANGE! And look back up at him
"continue"
Confused by what I just did he tries to remember what he was saying "okay umm you where getting dressed and I couldn't help myself so I watched. I'm sorry if that's weird or confusing for you, you know I'm straight and I have a girlfriend who just dumped me after the phone call we just had."
"Kelsie broke up with you?" "Yeah" he scoffs
"Why?"
"I told her that I thought about you"
"Oh my god Tyler what were you thinking?!" I move off the bed standing up shocked
"I don't know! Wait yes I do, I was thinking about you! I've been thinking about you, and I needed to admit it to someone"
"Why didn't you come to me before you went to Kelsie?"
"Yeah I'd go to my gay roommate and admit to him that I think about him, and what? I'd like to have sex with him" he looks away embarrassed
"You said that to Kelsie?"
"Yes, I'm sorry Sam I've never been someone who hides or keep how I'm feeling inside" "You don't have to apologize it's just we've been roommates for a year I figured if there was
something I'd sense it by now. I don't think having sex with me is what you want Tyler, maybe it was
just a moment of confusion-"
"I actually thought about that" he cuts me off "I figure it was confusion but-" walking to his desk he opens his laptop and starts the type "I tried to test myself so I looked up gay porn" standing behind him I watch as he's doing what he's saying. Choosing a video he starts to play it "and it doesn't bother me" he watches the guys kiss
"Ohhkay" I shut his laptop "that means nothing Tyler, I've watched straight porn before and that's never bothered me"
He stands up out of his chair "this is different"
"It's really not"
"Sam I just want to know what it's like, I could've just gone and found out for myself but I figured-" "You figured I'm here and I'll just go along with it"
"Yeah I guess I mean you're gay and I know you"
"Not how it works Tyler"
"Why not? Am I not your type?" Tyler's everyones type
"It's not about that, having sex with a guy without talking about it first is like signing up for disaster specially since you've never done it
before. Have you ever kissed a guy before?" "No but-"
"Have you ever had any interaction with another guy that's made you question yourself?" "Besides watching you get dressed?"
"That doesn't count" this makes no sense to me, Tyler is on the baseball team which means he probably sees a bunch of guys naked or changing all the time, why hasn't that heighten his senses? "You should think about this more ok, I'm not going to have sex with you because I honestly don't think you'll feel the same afterwards."
"Isn't that the point of experiences? I don't want to feel the same afterwards"
"Then just think about it more ok? Give it time" Tyler and I have gotten along fine since we moved into the dorms and I wouldn't want to jeopardize that by having sex with him and ruining our dynamic.
After that weird conversation a week or so passed. I'm heading to the dining hall to meet up with Kati for lunch. "So how awkward have things been with Tyler since..."
"Not awkward just a little different, he doesn't really hang around our room as much. When I text him he says he's at practice or in class, but I know he's just trying to avoid me because he probably thinks I rejected him."
"Why did you reject him again?" Kati asks eating her salad
"I didn't reject him Kati I wanted him to be sure, if he was sure he would've said something by now. Tyler's kind of impulsive and I bet that's all it was"
"But what if you did do it tho? Not for him but for you, you were the one complaining that you haven't had any lately because you're so busy with school. Now your hot roommate asks you and what? You make excuses not to" she's kind of right I mean in a way this was an opportunity for me too. "Think about it this way, if you guys talk about it before hand, take it slow, and just reassure each other that it won't ruin anything, I don't see why you can't do it."
As we're having lunch Kati's boyfriend walks up to our table "hey guys" "Hey babe" they kiss
"Hey Seth"
Seth pulls a chair and sits next to Kati "babe let me ask you a question" "Okay"
"Sam's roommate told him he was confused and that they should have sex to help him figure out if he's into guys or not" not guys me "do you think he should do it?"
"Kati don't ask him that!"
"No it's ok Seth doesn't mind, do you?" "Nope" he smiles "how close are you guys?"
"We're not super close but we get along I mean I consider him a friend"
